Dear Alexander,

8 October 2011

I went to sleep after hearing my cousin was in the hospital and dreamt all night he was in surgery and dying on his sister's wedding day and while I was trying to wake up, my husband rolled over and by mistake pinned me down while I tried to sit up and I could tell it was probably going to be a mixed up, run down, washed out every day day.

At breakfast my husband found an excellent frittata recipe on his computer but all I found on my computer was  'View your banking document' message.

I think I'll go fishing in Wyoming.

On the way to pick up bread the car door frame lunged at my head and really hurt and while I waited for the light to change my head kept pounding and the cars in front of me kept cutting me off and I felt like a crybaby.

I am having a mixed up, run down, washed out every day day I told myself. No one even answered.

There was a dead bee in the leek leaves for dinner and I hate dead bees. There was no ice cream for dessert because it was Saturday and I hate no ice cream days.

The dish water was too hot, I ran into the open cupboard door with the other side of my head, the garbage can was dripping something and my hair was frizzy. I hate my hair when it gets frizzy.

When I went to bed, my husband took my pillow and hit me with it and said we should pillow fight, my eye was hurting, and I got a mosquito bite.

He still wanted to sleep next to me though.

It has been a mixed up, run down, washed out every day day. He said some days are like that.

Even while fishing.

Smelly stuff

My little home often smells a little off when I walk in, including, but not limited to the fact that people live here, my neighbor's smoke gently wafts into our living room, we probably should take the garbage out more often, and a cat lived here once. In order to combat these smells and promote natural things in our home, I decided to try making a difference...or at least add a nice scent to mix in with the rest. I mixed rosemary, marjoram, cloves, allspice, cinnamon stick, and a little bit of black peppercorn, put it in my freshly made bag, and hung it up.

Has it made a difference? Not really, though I did catch a hint of it once. I try.